this morning

I’ve woken up with a completely different attitude. Last night I went to bed upset and wondering the same things- why do the people that I put closest to me, end up being the ones that hurt me the most? Why do my best friends turn into my worst enemies? Why do people that I love turn into people that I can’t stand? I’ve thought it was something wrong with me and in fact there might be, but I’ve come to the conclusion that I can’t change people. I can’t change their minds or how they’re going to act. So, if they want to lose a friend in me, that’s up to them, but I’m not the going-back type. Usually once you’ve hurt me but so much, I can’t actually go back to that place in our relationship where we used to be. Anyway, today I can’t help but not really care about these problems. I’ve got a family that loves me and a family back at Radford that loves me too. Cara might be the only other person in my life that I consider to be my “best friend”. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get rid of that one :) But today is new day, let’s make the best of it shall we?